Evaluations
This week my mother said that I'm occasionally "so smooth as to be not really genuine" and "sometimes it comes across as phony." My therapist said that I'm a bit "holier than thou" about the things in my life that I'm proud of.
Neither of these things makes me feel particularly good.
March 30th, 2005 at 10:25 am
*hug*
It’s about authenticity. Neither of these would be an issue if you didn’t have a strong moral grounding and weren’t pretty centered in life.
You know how important it is to listen and to connect with people, but occasionally you push it into “smooth.”
You know what stuff really matters to you, that you’ve worked really hard at, and that you’ve been blessed with, but occasionally you push it into “boast.”
Sure, Adam. They’re mistakes. We all make some of them. But yours also reflect a foundation that is a pretty damn wonderful human being. Don’t beat yourself up too badly. You already value the “cure” and it’s a pretty clear part of who you are to your loved ones- you’ve got authenticity and humility in spades.
Be good to yourself, my friend. You’re worth it.
Seth
March 30th, 2005 at 11:23 am
Well, sure. But like Seth said, you are the shizzle, and you’re a lot better off in terms of personality quirks than most people I know. I mean, it you’re like, “this is my shit, and I’m going to work on it,” that’s cool, but know that I want to sex you just the way you are.
…I mean, uh, shake hands and be good friends just the way you are. Manly, manly hand shakes.
March 30th, 2005 at 11:46 am
Now, in the warm light of day, I’m a little chagrined to have posted this kind of incomplete mewling to my blog, of all places. Lordy. Next up I’ll be participating in LJ memes trying to determine “Which Verse of “American Pie” are You?”
Thanks for the thoughts, you two. It’s going to take a couple of days of rolling the original critiques around to try and find the handle on them, but I’m more comforted than I can say to hear the encouragement.