November 28, 1994
there is a fundamental ambiguity in everything
as integral as the quarks and charges
and as we peep out
from the house that existentialism built
we suddenly find the words adrift on the wind of the
big
bad
wolf, ambiguity.
(among others, 2. the condition of admitting more than one meaning )
So we find our privileged press box
far from the playing field
and second guess the moves into our notebooks
And we write poetry on the snow
and the birch bark
and wonder that even our own emotional archaeologists
can't seem to piece the remnants together in the next
E.A. (Emotional Age)
"He did WHAT? No, you're reading that wrong. Try
It
Again." (ambiguity)
(among others, leaves the intended sense doubtful; it need not be purposely deceptive. )
but finally computer monitors are the
only things in black and white
and my urge to travel is irresistible
but one's not allowed to cross the
eigenstate lines
and even the days are beginning to oatmeal into
the next day
and the day before
and nights into
one
long
night. ergo, ambiguity.
(among others, --Ant. 1. explicit. 3. clear )
So let me just admit myself awash
or adrift
and let me
let go
even the mirage of moorings
and proclaim myself
no bricklayer
but only next door, with maybe one brick and a telescope
and the sight of you at
apogee and
perigee
makes me slackjawed
and the sound of you at
peak and
bottom
rings my ears
and the thought of you at
dedication and
exultation
dents even my most existential of houses
until all I'm left with is a low wolf whistle
echoing around the inside of the cove of my mind
and floating in the debris with the remnants of my
ambiguity, (among others, syn. Equivocal: equally capable
of two or more interpretations, usually for the purpose of mystifying )